Wednesday, November 25, 2009

3 months

our sophia is 3 months old today. the past few weeks have been so fun getting to really know her and enjoy her. it might sound ironic after the few months that we've been through, but i say with honesty and sincerity that she is our 'angel baby' now.

she is happy and engaging. she would spend her entire day staring at you and talking with you. she never tires of trying to tell stories or smiling. she is alert, and engaging with anyone that comes up to her. she quickly welcomes with a squirm and smile. she will be our social butterfly i think.

she loves to stand. her little body is filling out now that she doesn't burn so many of her calories screaming, but she is still so strong. standing is her preference as she talks with you.

she has discovered her hands...and her fingers. i try to shove that pacifier in, but she will not be fooled. she actually loves her wrist and fingers so much that they often keep her awake as she explores them.

she's a sleeper....all night long. she's leaps and bounds earlier than my other two kids and i'm oh-so-grateful. often times she'll sleep for 10-12 hours at night.

she loves her running water. in the screaming days that was the only thing that would calm her. we would spend most our time standing at the kitchen sink. she still likes it to go to sleep. we did buy a sound machine, but she can tell the difference.

we're so thankful for sophia. each godshall child has entered the world with a bang, they each have had their drama. i think that probably has more to do with their mother and father than them, we breed drama i guess. we're thankful to be on the other side of the drama with sophia and are truly enjoying her, not being able to quite get enough.

Saturday, November 21, 2009

fun again

as we continue to climb out of the past few months, i realize there have been great strides made. despite the sickness, and exhaustion there have been sweet moments that continue to stand out in my mind.

like watching isaiah take off on his 2nd try on a two wheeler. he has mastered it since, and does it all on his own.

like despite my previous speculations, alaythia WILL NOT be walking down the aisle in a diaper. i heard it was possible but never believed it was true - that one day a child will wake up and decide to do it. i can give testimony to it's validity now. you KNOW i never would have attempted it in the state we've been in.

like sophia not absolutely hating her car seat. it's not her favorite, but we can actually take her places in it.

we made a trip to costco the other day. sophia didn't scream on our way there. alaythia used the potty with no issues, isaiah was a happy, helpful big boy. on the way home, the music going, the kids singing along, the sun warming our skin through the window, matt looked over at me and said, 'is it possible life is getting fun again?'

i think so.

Friday, November 20, 2009

happy sophia



we call her our angel baby now. she sleeps through the night and plays happily during the day. we had a big test today confirming that she has reflux... but the medication seems to be doing the trick.

Wednesday, November 18, 2009

as requested

these puzzles (missing just one) were 'welcome home' gifts from daddy. we tried to get all 4 done last night before bed, but just got to three.

the chubster

i have to find the other pictures i have of isaiah and alaythia in this same position.

she LOVES her elephant friends and her lion.

girlies.

Tuesday, November 17, 2009

new and improved

we're home now. have been for several days. we arrived back in kentucky different people. i'm still sure that i can't fully describe to you where we were. emotionally, physically, spiritually. a very dark, dark place.

but in vancouver there is a concentration of family. and it took every one of them to nurse us back to life. a few days before we headed home i finally felt like myself again, i felt human. back home, in kentucky, neighbors and friends took care of matt. the 5 of us reunited totally different people. i was ready to come home. matt was rested, caught up. isaiah was taller. alaythia could speak clearer.

but 'the most significant change' award goes to the youngest of this godshall bunch. about a week or so into our visit she just stopped. she stopped screaming for no apparent reason. she started smiling, sitting contentedly, cooing and talking with people. and now that she doesn't spend ALL DAY screaming, she's packing on the pounds. she gets chunkier every day.

and we are different.

words could not describe what family did for us. they gathered together, they each took turns doing what they could, they gave, they sacrificed and they brought us back to life. then they sent us out to continue the journey we're on. and i'm more convinced, amazingly, that this is the journey we are supposed to be on.

i long to be near family someday. after these past weeks and months i'm more convinced we're not designed to do this alone. but until we are, i will be grateful for what we get, concentrated chunks. and be more grateful for the lot that was given to me. an amazing lot at that.

Tuesday, November 3, 2009

usually

in most cases silence doesn't necessarily mean somethings wrong. in this case, it is the truth.

i'm not even sure i can fully - or even try - express why. it was a lot of things.

as i type, i type from vancouver. grandma called on tuesday afternoon and suggested that the kids and i fly to vancouver since we had a friend from portland out who could help us get there. i didn't even consider it because i didn't have the energy to even try. but matt and courtney helped me get there.

at 6pm on tuesday we decided to go, at 6am on wednesday morning we were all on our way to two different airports to meet up on the other side of the country.

we have been sick, exhausted and so run down. we haven't left the house since we got here. sleep is the priority and we're all starting to feel a bit better.

we're thankful for family, to get us here and to sustain us while we're here. daddy is home, getting sleep and trying to finish the semester strong. hopefully when we meet up again we'll all be in a different place.