thank you for your prayers and support of us in the last few days. i'm sure one day i'll look back at all these posts and be embarrassed at how emotional i've been. but for now, it seems fitting.
matt finished testing and interviewing by noon our time. i found myself at 11:40 vacuuming and crying. the weight of it all. when i got the call from matt and he debriefed how it went, i couldn't help but feel relief. to know that he did all he could do and now we wait.
he surprisingly was asked a lot of questions about his thesis...something he hasn't thought of in a while. but the Lord was faithful to bring back details when he needed them.
we will know the last week in march. it's time to think about something else anyway. for now we will await matthew's return. and hope that tonight, he sleeps.
Friday, February 29, 2008
Thursday, February 28, 2008
our world flipped upside down
are you ready for more? oh i hope so.
you don't have to be a rocket scientist to know that most of our efforts and thinking regarding PhD schools has been pointed toward wheaton. the reality is that matthew applied to 3 other schools. but you didn't hear me talk about them much because, in my flawed thinking, i felt like the others were shoe ins. i felt like they would be the schools that would be a walk in the park. shows you how little i really know about this world. oh how wrong i've been.
matthew met with a new testament professor this afternoon while at SBTS to get more information about the program. in the process he also found out that all the people that applied to SBTS did not get asked to come interview. some were turned away. there are 9 candidates currently there interviewing this weekend. and here's the kicker...they only have spots for 3.
looks like we're in the same situation here, that we were at wheaton.
i'm sure you can speculate on how the past few days....um, weeks have been for us...for matthew. in a conversation that i had with him a few hours ago, we both said that we feel our world has been flipped upside down.
i want to be honest. i'm tired. emotionally, physically, spiritually. i'm calling for reinforcements.
i'm sure one day we'll look back on this time and marvel. the sickness, the birthdays, the travel, the interviews, the waiting. i've been told we're only getting stronger. i hope that's true.
you don't have to be a rocket scientist to know that most of our efforts and thinking regarding PhD schools has been pointed toward wheaton. the reality is that matthew applied to 3 other schools. but you didn't hear me talk about them much because, in my flawed thinking, i felt like the others were shoe ins. i felt like they would be the schools that would be a walk in the park. shows you how little i really know about this world. oh how wrong i've been.
matthew met with a new testament professor this afternoon while at SBTS to get more information about the program. in the process he also found out that all the people that applied to SBTS did not get asked to come interview. some were turned away. there are 9 candidates currently there interviewing this weekend. and here's the kicker...they only have spots for 3.
looks like we're in the same situation here, that we were at wheaton.
i'm sure you can speculate on how the past few days....um, weeks have been for us...for matthew. in a conversation that i had with him a few hours ago, we both said that we feel our world has been flipped upside down.
i want to be honest. i'm tired. emotionally, physically, spiritually. i'm calling for reinforcements.
i'm sure one day we'll look back on this time and marvel. the sickness, the birthdays, the travel, the interviews, the waiting. i've been told we're only getting stronger. i hope that's true.
Wednesday, February 27, 2008
i only wrote one speach
i didn't follow in the steps of the presidential hopefuls and write an acceptance and denial post. i only wrote the acceptance post (in my head). so i'm at a loss for words as i attempt to tell you that we won't be going to wheaton.
while we trust the Lord in knowing what is best for us, i believe it is okay to be sad. the end of a long dream. he is the God of emotion, he created it, he created me...so i will gladly give him my sorrow today.
while we trust the Lord in knowing what is best for us, i believe it is okay to be sad. the end of a long dream. he is the God of emotion, he created it, he created me...so i will gladly give him my sorrow today.
i didn't think he would go
matt-i didn't think he would go, but this morning he leaves for kentucky. we have not heard from wheaton a yes or a no. he'll go and do the interview process all over again. less relational, more testing. it's been an emotional week. every second thinking that we could hear. and every day that goes by not hearing. southern here we come.
moses-our big black dog. i didn't think he would go. he went for a run yesterday, and he never came home. we drove, rolled down the windows and called for him. alaythia too. her little voice copying mama and saying, 'baa baa' (her name for moses). the house is emptier. our hearts are heavy with part of the family gone.
moses-our big black dog. i didn't think he would go. he went for a run yesterday, and he never came home. we drove, rolled down the windows and called for him. alaythia too. her little voice copying mama and saying, 'baa baa' (her name for moses). the house is emptier. our hearts are heavy with part of the family gone.
Tuesday, February 26, 2008
Happy 1st Birthday Alaythia
i remember hearing your voice for the first time. all my anxiety and worry went instantly away. i got to hold you just minutes after you were born. you were so alert. all i could say was, 'i love you, i love you so much' over and over.
you defied the odds...being a girl and all. godshall's and hendrix' don't come by girls easily. 
still to this day i find myself so shocked that i have a daughter. i love it. you want to snuggle, you love to talk. you have the best little sense of humor. i loved the other night when you crawled up the stairs and sat on the landing. i felt like you wanted to get away so we could have a mother, daughter talk. i imagined a few years ahead when we will be doing the same thing.
still to this day i find myself so shocked that i have a daughter. i love it. you want to snuggle, you love to talk. you have the best little sense of humor. i loved the other night when you crawled up the stairs and sat on the landing. i felt like you wanted to get away so we could have a mother, daughter talk. i imagined a few years ahead when we will be doing the same thing. 
you are our sweet pea. and today we look back on a year of life that has gone by so fast. you are our precious girl. we love you so much!
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