the trickle effect

this morning, while i was still trying to wake up, isaiah barged into the room. 'mom, i need to do some emailing.' he said matter-of-factly. if i was more awake i'm sure i would have burst into laughter. instead i rolled over slowly, hung half my body off the bed and pushed the power button of the computer.

i thought for sure i had baffled him by actually facilitating this bizzare request. so to put the nail in the coffin i said, 'who do you need to email isaiah?' so sure that he would have no response.

'i need to email wheaton, duke and trinity.'

i was suddenly awake. 'oh?' 'yes, i need to email them and see if they want daddy to come or not.'

the somber reality now up in my face, so early in the morning. it's something we're all thinking about. we don't speak it very often. but it's the ever present force.... elephant.....weight.

i let him hit the keyboard and rolled completely out of bed. i was in the bathroom when i heard him typing and speaking, 'Jesus, please help wheaton, duke and trinity to want daddy...'

we may not be speaking it, but isaiah's picked it up, loud and clear.